Though iits 2 weeks holiday break,
but ii dont feel the mood.
shucks.
met up wiith cliques do proj,
chiiong own stuffs.
AHH.

19 June 09

field trip wiith e kids to LTA.
HAHA.
first time going on a field tripp wiith the kids.
kinda excited.
but well.
tiiring.

24 June 09

Field trip wiith the kids to MMainland tropical fish farm.
second time going on a field tripp wiith the kids.
vanessa and rugaiyah went alrdy.
they say they smell like fish.
HAHA.

one word: FUN!
first time in my 20 years of life,
ii saw a real duck, real goats, real rooster and a super SUPER big FISH!!!
and the SUPER BIG fish weighs 200plus kg.
OMG.

the uncle let the goats come out,
the kids went insane and wentt ard touching the goats,
feeding it wiith grass.
Guess the goatss might suffer frm indigestion!!!

ii was fcuking frightenedd by the 2 goats la,
ran away with the other trs.
super funny la..

den decided to try touching the goats.
LOL.
and yea.
snap snap photo!!!


The goats!


The rooster!




The duck and chicken!!!
looks damn fake frm pic BUT iits actually reall!!!

denn was CATCHIING FISH tiime!!!
OMG!
iit was also my first tiime catching fishes.
super excited la.!!!
sry uh, ii know ii super sua gu. LOL.
but ii really enjoy myself catchiing fishhes with the kids la!!!


The fishess ii caughtt for the kiid!!! HOHOHHOOXDD

hmm.. whats next was feeding the fishes.
nothing special.
kids are so happy feeding the fishes,
the trs and ii are just afraiid dat they will drop inside lar!

teachers being teachers. :)

getting more and more used to everything.
adapting :)

It was only when i tried to take shortcuts in life,
then i realised the "short cuts" were actually longer then my usual route.
and thus ended up wasting more time.
thats why ii have never take shortcuts in the things i do. :)

thiis was what ii understood ystd while walking to popo house.
anyway, just random thoughts to share.

busy busy busy.
full day attachment .
planning lessons and materials.
group proj.
individual proj.
AHH. chasing after tiime again and again.

12 JUNE 09!!!

swear ii was superr tired from attachment.
since monday,
diint have had a good rest.
throat was bursting from competing with the voices of the kids. T.T
anyway.
tough, but ii am still going to overcome.

still, met gf at Cathay after attachment.
finally. weekend.!
ii cant wait.

let the photos do the talking. !
too tired. =XXX




Diinner at Cathayy.




Minds Cafe !


AH LI house!!!


Playiing "Bluff" all time favourite wiith them.


AH LI house downstairr ! !

***photos credits to ANDELINE poh :DDD***

home, phone-edd wiith BB.
think was half awake half in lala land le.
oops. =X
seems to have no time for anything.

TIME!!! , you are too precious to me now!!!

Photos took weeks ago :)))

BEST GF. ! :DDD

Dontt worry, we aint . . . we rr straight. =XXX

yepps. ii love her. :D

Day 2~ there!
33 more days to go.
tdy ruigayah and vannessa came for attachment.
time passed faster.
had one another to talk and discuss stuffs.

shant elaborate much .
pretty long day.
hot weather.

after attachment, went east point with them.
andd bus home tgt.
e 3 of us lived super near one another. LOL.

damn tired.
another tired day.

superr miiss BB la.
ii wan huggs!!!
missmissmiss!!!

MMy FIRST day of attachment for full day!!!
9am till 5.30pm!!!
andd ii was the only student-teacher there ystd. :(
nervous !
new environment, new children, everything was NEW!!!
well..
time passed supeer slowly.
physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted at the end of the day.
ii seriously miss my previous centre!!!
hais.
andd ii miss going to school withh Bii and TYL.

ii am learning.
ii ponder iif ii am cut out for thiis . . .
there isnt an answerr yet.
so far.

anyway.
met shelby at Vivo !
she acc me to collect my LG phone!!!
yes! ii collectedd! FINALLY!
hadd diiner and lovely chat over our first dayy!!!
all the little little things.

bus home. super tiired.
worn out! :(

went back to school.
for professional pathways .
attended various talks by various preschools.

den after talks,
went ard with bii, ling and ana to see the booths.
got lots and lots of brouchures.
LOL. both hands were so full.
filled our names for some preschools. :)

andd we playedd the colour wheel thing.
ii spin dao one 2GB thumbdrive.
*LAUGHS*

enriching day . :D

afterr everything,
went makan place wiith LIING.
my all time partner!
too hungry. eat. talk. ! laughs. grins.
niice time talking ehs!
TYL, you know why.
lol. all the ahem ahem .!
and only me and you will talk aboutt it. :)))
best!

on a angrier note!
wth lor, my LG phone sent for repair siince mon lor.
tdy fri liao lor,
superrangry lo. so long. still haven okay!
somemore, is only battery prob lor. :((((((((

home. andd slept till evening.


Lastt time. siilly :)))

superr miiss B la.
howhowhow. ?!?!?!?!
BabyyyBBBBBBBBB:)))
seeing you tomorrow le. :D
lurbe u :)
sleep early uhs. !

Nights =)

cool.
in 24 hours, ii only sleptt for 4 hours.
how cool ehs. =XXX

home iin e morniing.
7plus am. andd knockedd straightt down after shower.
9plus am. got woke upp by mama.
facial appointment at 11am.
eyes cannot open lo. :(((

spore post.
hadd mac for lunchh wiith mama and lil didi.
met B.
andd home tgt.

ii know B will read de,
gladd that everythiing back to normal le.
sweeter.
andd ii really truly cherish you.
B,
no more tears,
no more hurts,
no more.
only smiles,
only happiness,
most importantly,
only me and you. :)))

Nights.

hadd last tutorial for cirpe.
before dat, met cliques as early as 9am do proj.
but in e end, we started at 10am. =X
hmm... done in 1hr time.
*mis-calculatedd the timing. met too early.*

lunchedd and cirpe tutorial.
andd proj again.
did till 6pm ii think.

Liing andd Bii acc me to Holland.
pass B stuffs.
surprise for B.
he working but didnt know ii will go there just to pass him stuffs.
just wanted to see B. :)
xin teng lo, few days never see B,
he looks so tired. :(

hmm.. andd hadd laksa for diiner wwiith Liing and Bii.
chiit-chatted. :)
andd bus 7 home wiith Bii.

Home-edd.
showerr andd papa brought me to e-li-tan house! :)))
past few days, emotions were like roller coaster.
upps and downs.
ii cannt stay at home and be alone de.

met e-li-tan .
went to The Mel's place.
second tiime going there wiith her.
niice place.
not complicated.
good ambience.
perfect music for the mood.
hadd a tough tiime deciding what finger food to have. =XXX
LOL. andd yupp.
sat there from 9plus pm till 12plus am.

seriously.
be it proj or r/s,
we have many similarities.
talkedd about sch stuff-> parenting stuff-> family stuff-> r/s..
anything. so long as its me and her,
we can talk about anything under the moon.. :)))

walkedd back to e-li-tan house. :)
blogshopped. bloghopped. gossip.
camwhored.
fought iin bed as usual.
we kicked, we scratchedd. LOL.
it was like those days when ii would always ton at her house after clubbing or pubbing or anything.

my dear e-li-tan have schh at 8am the next day.
andd we fall asleep only after 4am. ii guess.
Boyy!
iif you are reading this,

really wanna say "Thankk you for always beiing there!"
no matter what, ii will always remember that you will always be my best listening ear,
andd shares problems tgt. :)
True Friends are one who hold your hands,
andd touches your heart :)))

In my chapter of life,
you have been my true and best friend.

sry worr.
must be tiring in schh todayy worr.
restt more.
charge your batteryy and attackk your proj!
dont forget thatt we are the same type of character whenn it comes to proj, *griins*
JYJY.
ii will always be there.
just like how you will always be there. :)))

3.47am.
close to 4am.
waking upp at 7plus am laterr.

ii cant sleep.
ii caught onlya few winks of sleep.
ii wokeup frm my bad dreams.

you called, ii answered.
we soundedd like 2 strangers.
iit made me even more afraid.
alone.
with no one by my side now.
made me even even more afraid.

ii cried many times.
crybaby.
ii cant control.
lostcounts of the number of times ii shedded those tears.
ii m sorry iif ii cause you to be in a worser state than me.:(
ii really love you from the bottom of my heart,
iif not ii wont be in such a terrible state.

ii ruin everything iin my own hands.
ii wont blame you for being in this way now.

irregular heartbeat.
irregular moods.
irregular tears.
uncontrollable.
fcukedd-upp feelings.
need a terrible cry out.
everythiing iis driving me nuts.
whyy am ii always like that.
leave me alone.
maybe ii dont deserve good thiings iin the world.
like u.
memoriies wiith u were great.
most of it were sweet.
yet, ii am always the one holding back.
not giiving you 101% of me.

being super moodless now.
numbing myself withh anythiing ii can think of.
ii need huggs now.
ii need assurance now.
ii need you.
believe iit or not.

entire day.
ii dont feel good.
sryy for making you feel that way too.
sorry that ii aint perfect.

sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry
sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry
sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry
sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry
sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry
sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry
sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry
49 sorry for 49 days for all the hurts.

ii know no amount of sorry can make up for all the hurts.