irregular heartbeat.
irregular moods.
irregular tears.
uncontrollable.
fcukedd-upp feelings.
need a terrible cry out.
everythiing iis driving me nuts.
whyy am ii always like that.
leave me alone.
maybe ii dont deserve good thiings iin the world.
like u.
memoriies wiith u were great.
most of it were sweet.
yet, ii am always the one holding back.
not giiving you 101% of me.

being super moodless now.
numbing myself withh anythiing ii can think of.
ii need huggs now.
ii need assurance now.
ii need you.
believe iit or not.

entire day.
ii dont feel good.
sryy for making you feel that way too.
sorry that ii aint perfect.

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49 sorry for 49 days for all the hurts.

ii know no amount of sorry can make up for all the hurts.