ii kneww youu woulld readd my blogg ..probably you have readd it plentyy of tiimes alreadyy.. ii GAVE UP..my hearrt was deadd to the affairs of heart siince may..andd it will never be reviivedd agaiin.. andd i

meant NEVER..

you msnedd mii..agaiin..: by hiim"

jus happen to come across ur blog bahx,

hmmM alot of things u don know, and i would rather u don know and be the u now, blame everything on me and put all ur hatrate on my bahx..

i know i used a lot of words and lies to anger u,

haiikeep it that way ba.

andd agaiin, ii sensedd S-O-R-R-I-N-E-S-S from thiis..ii hated andd dreaded thiis worrdd, especiially if its fromm hiim..=( haiis..stop assumiing thatt ii doesnt seem to know whatt is goiing on..ii long have my answerr to thiis questioon.. andd its as clearr as plaiin waterr now..ii usedd to doubt my iintuition but now ii am riight..

guyss arent faiithful. can love one madly at one tiime and yett change feeliings as and whenn theyy liike..

jerks..=(

iiff ii couldd siimply blame you for all those hurts andd tears andd everythiing,

ii WOULD, DEFINITELY WOULD!!!

haiis..the lastt thiing ii would wanna see is defiinitely you belongiing to anotherr one..but neber miind, iit doesnt matter noww..ii know you will definitely feel iindebted andd guilty to me for as long as you liive. butt no point haviing those indebtness andd guiltness feel towards me..causee it wont helpp eiitherr..

Affairs of the heart still needd the ownerr of the heart to unlock andd heal itt.. butt looks liike itt will neverr fiind its ownerr of the heart agaiin..

ii give upp..ii am tiiiredd of beiing the one to love you siilently..

ii yearnn for the returnn

butt ii guess iitt will neverr everr happens agaiin..

friiends kneww exactly how terriible ii feltt for the pastt 5 pluss months...itss siimply awefull andd not me..theyy have scoldedd me many tiimes forr beiing stuppidd. andd yett ii stil lcarry on my stupiidness.

justt seems to be addictedd to you andd trappedd by all the doubts which ii knew thatt the answerr to those doubts wouldd defiinitely not be a happy endiing.. lalalalala``neverr miind..

ii will foreverr rememberr all thosee memoriiess be itt happy or sadd ones..

at leastt ii diid fall in love befoore andd really really love you truly andd deeply, gave iin everythiing liike neverr befoore..whiich iin turnn got backk nothiing but tearss, hurtts andd the feeliing of miissiing you..

well, iit doesntt matterr now lerr..gone are the dayys whenn ii wouldd shedd unworthyy tearss forr you.

orr shoulldd ii sayy ii will neverr everr shedd anyy moree tearss in regardd to the

affaiirs of the heartt..

to you, those hurts andd tearss miight meantt nothiing,

but to me,

.iit meannt everythiing.

. . .it meant that ii can never trust "love" agaiin. . .